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The Great Stillness

This is a poem I wrote for my sister,  about my love for her,
and about the last journey I shared with her.

Love you forever,
my Big Sis.

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a great stillness
followed
my steps
these past many months

the great stillness
listened
when
i got that terrible call
that unforgettable March day

the great stillness
stuck by my side
as i ran around town
frantically
getting my passport done
to fly an ocean away
with newly minted passport
in hand
i left the same day
filled with anxiety and fear and anguish
on a plane
to the place of my roots

the great stillness
cushioned my weary head
as i arrived at fiumicino airport
with a long 24 hours of no sleep
the great stillness
watched over me
as i slept briefly
on that interminably long bus ride

the great stillness
gave me the energy to
run
to catch a dozen train rides
over 200 kilometers a day
to be able to see
my beloved loved one
my most beautiful and best big sister
while
I still could

the great stillness
held my hand tight
as i listened helplessly
to the cries of suffering
of my dear loved one
the blood of  my blood
too soon
oh too soon too soon too soon
her journey so shockingly
close to the end

the great stillness
held me close
as i wept oh i wept
for the first time
at my mother’s grave
until the tears finally
stopped
and i felt that
great release
so cathartic
so healing

the great stillness
gave me the strength
to say all the words in my heart
to say the very last i love you
to say the very last good-bye
to that beautiful and beloved face
and then
gave me the strength
to walk out that hospital door
for the last time
knowing
that would be the
end
of my time
with
her

the great stillness
watched over me as i returned
via bus via plane
again
waiting again another 24 hours sleepless
to retrack my steps
back home

the great stillness
whispered love
in my ears and heart
as i struggled
to do what i could for my family
struggling
an ocean away

and then

when i got
that last phone call
i had been waiting months for
had been so dreading
with the words
our sister is gone

then
that last moment
when i gently hung up
the phone
and lay back down
on my bed
numb
with the hurt
with the grief
with the pain

the great stillness
lay down beside me
then
and held me close
as long as
i needed to be held

the great stillness
comforted me
then

and still comforts
my soul

the great stillness
of
God
that never
lets
me
go.

***

The Last Day

This poem I wrote is dedicated to all the victims of the Newtown, CT shooting, their families and loved ones.

It is also dedicated to every person in every community across the world, whose life has been touched or affected by violence.

One day, I pray, let all the senseless violence end.

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The Last Day

let the innocent
sleep

let the babies
sleep

let the teachers
sleep

let the mothers
let the fathers
let the families
sleep

make this
a day
without
harm

make this
a day
without
pain

make this
a day
without
tears

your son
your daughter
your child

your mother
your father
your teacher

your loved ones

your dream
your hope
your future

your love

let all
the good things
be
let all
the good ones
be

let this day
and every day
start and end
go on and on

without

that
frozen
moment in time
crashing
with sudden
violence
across
our TV screens

that
frozen
moment in time
exploding
with sudden
violence
in all our
hearts

let there be
kisses
and hugs
and hands
being held

stories shared
between
all generations

moments treasured
amongst strangers
crossing
each other’s
paths

acts of kindness
passing through
in a wave
through
happy crowds

let today
be a
Shiny Day
be a
New and Fresh Day

let us let go
of Yesterday

let Yesterday
be
The Last Day
we weep.

***

letting go

turn it on
turn it on
turn it on

turn on
the
Light

the Light
in you
the Light
in me

let’s make this
a better
place

let’s make this
a world to
call home

let’s make this
a beautiful
heartspace

let’s make this
a gentle, healing
place

let us let go
of what no longer
works

let us let go
of all inner
pain

let us let go
of what
we should have
we could have
we would have
done

let us let go
of all
blame

let us let go
of those who
hurt us

let us let go
of those who
we hurt

let us flow
let us flow
let us flow

with the
Light

let us
turn
the
page

and start
fresh
with
Love

let us
Love
every way
every day

let us
Love
always
and
forever more

let us
Love
as
we
let
go.

***

I AM

I dream.
I hope.
I share.

I see.
I dance.
I love.

I smile.
I laugh.
I hug.

I learn.
I evolve.
I understand.

I wonder.
I touch.
I appreciate.

I reach out.
I hold on.
I rise up.

By
the grace of
God.

I AM.

sacred

sacred

blessed it was
my spirit and yours
intertwined and filled with the light

we floated up and out
in that elsewhere
of no mind
where energy transforms into
a new creation, tenuous and baby soft

that space where we celebrate
with our bodies
in that dance of the divine
the divine within, the divine without

worshipping each other
slowly and lingeringly
a leisurely banquet of sense memory

oh we go
we go out
we go beyond
we go higher and higher
beyond thoughts of sky and flesh
flesh melds into flesh
words blur into one
the white welcomes our embrace

we shine with the white light
our desires create
the light takes us up and out
to the yonder of our sensual dreams
beyond notions of up and down

sacred our touch is
as we explore each other
tenderly caressing, achingly full and feather light

sacred our dance is
as we embrace the music
the drumbeats of our hearts create

sacred, your touch, my touch
we bless this time and space
with our joining and union of flesh and spirit

oh bliss, bliss of our desires
becoming beyond desire
the blessed earth beneath us
the blessed sky above us
the blessed tangle of our limbs

we breathe in the sacred
we live the sacred
we create the sacred

and oh
and oh
oh my oh my
my sacred twinned self
you bless me with this moment

you, my bliss, my blissful muse
in this sensually loving sacred space

you and i
sacred souls
in our sacredly created space.

***

my heart

****note: for G****

do i mind
do i mind
do i mind

do i mind
if you sing me a song
do i mind
if you whisper in my ear
do i mind
if you hold me in your arms again

do i mind
if you touch my heart

oh my heart
oh my heart
oh my heart

how you do touch
my heart

oh how you do
how you do
how you do

touch
me.
***

soul journey

oh the soul
the potential
the dreams
the loves
the yearning

immaculate
clean
pure
light

the soul smiles
as its sails through the air

so limitless
so free
filled with The Universe
and beyond

oh my incomparable soul

where you take me
how you soar

one with the Oneness
one with Spirit
one with Being

one

one soul
mine
so happy
to *be*
one.

***